< UNTOLD LIES
Tuesday, April 09, 2013
with a track record like mine, its hard to imagine/hope that things will turn out any other way. i'm tired of being the first loser, cause in relationships, 2nd place means you get nothing. i'm desperate for this to work out, but am i willing to put myself out there again? would i rather suffer in silence wearing a mask i dont want to wear or would i rather wear my heart on my sleeve to let it get ripped apart for the world to see. they say that you need to fight for what you want, but whats the point in fighting when you know at the end of the day its a losing battle. sometimes i wish i didnt know things, i wish that i dont see it coming from miles away... maybe then i will be have a slightly longer period of delusional happiness.