I bored... thats a fact...
its a sunday and i am alone in camp and i have pretty much run out of things to do.
so somehow i found myself here.

i was reading what i had posted back in 2009 and 2010 and it sort of hit me that i was pretty messed up back then... no i was an idiot a fool and an ass back then. all the time i was trying to hide my feelings, arguing with myself, telling myself one thing then proceeding to do the complete opposite. i pushed my friends away thinking that it was better for me. i made so many stupid mistakes then did things against my better judgment and acted like a complete dickhead. so i am to blame for what happened.
I seriously dislike who i was back then, i hurt my friends, i already apologised and i thought that it was all over, back to normal... but i guess i was wrong. it would seem that bad impressions leave a deeper mark.
i know this probably wont be read, but i am really sorry about what happened i have no excuses to make, it was all due to my stubbornness and bad judgment. all i can say is sorry.





the rest of 2010 was basically filled with ARMY. not much happened in army, well not much that could put me into emotional turmoil... so in a sense it allowed me to have some down time to consolidate my thoughts and yeah basically evaluate. i had almost no one to talk to regularly and i had not much of an aim or a goal to achieve in my personal life.

that is until recently... recently things have happened to put things back in order.
recently things have happened to give me an aim and goal.

recently i met friends from a time where life was much simpler and that showed me that things arent as bad as we make it out to be.

i met friends from way back in J1 and that brought me back to a time where i had fun and i know my friends are still there though they have other commitments.

i met a friend i've known for 2 years and only communicated through sms letters and msn and we went out in person for the first time. xD

all in all, now i have an aim and purpose and now i guess i am happier then before.
i wont make the same mistake again.