I WANT TO BE A ROCKSTAR!!!!
To just be able to stand on a stage in front of large crowd singing along with your song.
but that is a dream that will never come true. haha an impossible dream...

anyway moving on from my random dream.

I think the last week has been a good week relatively at any rate.
I had quite a few setbacks and failures this week in many aspects of my life. I was so demoralised that I wanted to give up hope completely. I wanted to stop trying cause i didn't want to be disappointed yet again.

But then it occurred to me that if i didn't try again I would never know how things could turn out. How was I to know that the end result was not worth the amount of effort i put in.

I have been known to give up easily, to hesitate when it comes to decision time. I complain a lot when things don't turn out how I want to to turn out.

I think that now its time for a change, i am not going to be that guy anymore. I look around and i see people trying a lot harder then i am to get the things that they want and they just pick themselves up when they fail, when they are out down, when they are rejected. I have to learn from that, I cannot just give up when things get too tough or when i think that there are insurmountable obstacles in my way. I need to be able to preserve through all of it cause you will never know if something has great worth to you till you have fought for it.

So i am not giving up.... not until i am certain i will never be able to attain it.