Thursday, June 11, 2009
i am coming to realise that i do things mostly out of whim and i never really think something through completely its more of a... "what will happen if i do it this way??? can i really do it??? maybe that... nvm i shall do it..." and then 'bam!' i do it.sometimes it turns put fine, better then expected even, but most of the time it goes badly, i regret it and i think about what would happen if....
but i look back the times i do think things through i regret it as well...
am i messed up or what?
life is life, to me whats important is the moment we are in and not what will happen what could happen and what has happened...
i want to live up disturbed in my present...
i dont want to think about what i could have done...
i believe my choices are what i feel are best for me and no amount of additional thinking to going to change it...