Saturday, May 30, 2009
Sitting on the ledge, I look out into the vast expense of the dark night sky.The cool slow night breeze fan my face, and cooled my body down.
For the first time in days,
I felt at ease,
I felt peace,
I felt the clatter in my mind fade to black.
My worries seemed miniscule,
Toned down,
As though it was someone else's worries.
I felt oddly at ease.
It was 1 in the morning.
The neighbour's houses were quite and dark.
Everyone had climbed into bed and was being lulled to sleep by the sandman.
The only light came from the street lamps.
But my main reason for coming out was not so I could ignore it.
On the contrary,
It was to face it,
To reason with myself,
To make it easier to forget.
And so it all came flooding back to me.
I wished the calm could have lasted.
I wish I could have left it as someone else's problem.
But this is my problem and I have to face it.
And so I will.
Tine away,
Time alone,
Time to help me...
I can see you are a lot happier now,
I can see that you have taken my place,
I can see that you like it there,
I can see that I sort of miss it,
But I do not regret doing what i did,
It has made me sad to some extent,
But I am glad it has made you happier.
I just hope you know what you are doing,
I hope that you don't hurt yourself again.