Tuesday, February 24, 2009
life has this excellent way of screwing with you... i wonder why...
This post was made on the 18 of feb 2009
but i have held of posting this till all interviews people have are over, they need to boost in moral... this really contradicts what i usually tell people and i want to help people not demoralize them
I seriously think that i hope, wish, think, dream too much... these things usually fall through. i am not saying that my hopes and dreams havent come true before, on rare occasions they do...
but seriously hope is an overrated thing, i always tell people to have hope, to believe that everything will turn out find and it will, the fact of the matter is that hope is just a way we trick ourself into thinking positive and making a situation look better. i mean its good to have hope before you start something, due to the fact that it gives you the confidence you need to do better then you could on a normal occasion, cause if you believe in yourself you can achieve greater things... that much i believe... but for a situation you can do nothing to change? something that is totally out of your control? why should i waste my time deluding myself into thinking it is possible for something good to come out of this? most of the time its a let down... and the more you hope, the higher your expectations get, then what happens? it hurts hell of a lot more when you fall.
i dont like falling, falling sucks... i dont like disappointments even more... if the more i hope the more i get disappointed, why border even hoping? isnt it just a masochistic action, i know full well its not going to happen, never had the chance of happening, never will happen... then why still hope? maybe years of masking how i throughly feel, showing a happy face when i am really sad, or a sad face at random times when i need quiet times... i find my face doesnt express what i really feel.. is that good or bad? should i let the world know what i am feeling? its much easier to deny something when the sad expression on your face is fake, and its easier to get through a day with a happy face... that might change that might not? i guess the only person who would really know is me...
i just dont want to be hurt anymore... its best to keep my emotions in check and dont let my feelings get the better of me in situations where i would normally let my protective instincts kick in and save me the trouble of getting hurt time and time again...
i am sorry to all who read this and feel i have been a fake person to them... this is how i feel about myself, it has nothing to do with what i advise you to do of otherwise..... everything has its reason and context and i dont give advise i dont believe in...
Friday, February 20, 2009
I am happy just to be that friend you come to for advise... you dont have to tell me anything...
So today was the release of the angel mortal thing...just ask me whatever you need to...
never hesitate to ask for help...
it makes me happy just to make you happy...
hahah my mortal gave me like 3 letters today, unfortunately, i couldnt answer any cause i had no breaks till 2 plus in the afternoon.... so... sorry mortal(grace)...
i think i shall let her know who i am soon hahaha maybe in the next few days hahaha lol.... i personally havent been at the receiving end of this game but from what i see its kind of nice to have someone you dont know write to you... but i have seen some people who make a fool out of this by asking stupid things and saying things that would make a girl go WTF.... but i guess majority of the people who recieve stuff from their angels feel happy? i sure hope so... hahah so u had a total of 4 mortals... i didnt bother replying me so heck care him... one is grace my official mortal and the other 2 are my "adopted" mortals alina and sandy...i "adopted" them cause they should have a chance to play this game too hahaha... so yeah even though you both knew who i am i hope you had fun... glad your real angels decided to write back too hahaha
anyway, this post is for all the people who have made my life better excluding family, thats a different kind of thing all together... this post goes out to all my friends....
it sucks not to have friends as in really sucks.. i dont know what i would be without my friends, friends make me laugh, piss me off, have fun with me, scold me, be lame and random with me, basically friends make up almost all of my day, i dont know what i would do without them, i know i would be really sad if like some people i have no friends, i know people like that its just sad to see, granted they inflicted it on themselves.... but i suppose some people can live with it...
I cant live with it, in the case without my friends. so to all my friends out there, you know who you are you make my day... you make my life...
bye
Thursday, February 19, 2009
One by one my friends go getting further away... from me....i wonder why i bother helping people does it help me in anyway?
sometimes people dont appreciate it...
but i guess i do it cause its right?
and i know people do value it?
and maybe i like helping?
why must i have a motive for helping someone?
why is it i am a listening ear?
why do people rant to me?
am i that nice a guy?
am i that good a friend?
or am i just someone you turn too when no ones around?
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
I found this on Alina's blog and very coincidentally some songs quite cool haha read and see..
1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Kiss Me-Sixpence None The Richer
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Mercy-One Republic
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Complicated-Avril Lavigne(how coincidental)
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Until The Day I Die-Story of The Year
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Fallin' Apart-The All American Rejects
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Dance, Dance,Christa Paffgen-Anberlin
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Pressure-Paramore
WHAT IS 2+2?
Dirty Second Hands-Switchfoot
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
If Tomorrow Never Comes-Ronan Keating
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Dani California-Red Hot Chilli Peppers
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Better That We Break-Maroon 5
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Way Back Into Love(demo version)-Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Famous Last Words-My Chemical Romance
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
M+M's-Blink 182
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Heels Over Head-Boyslikegirls
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Brighter-Paramore
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
I Kissed a Girl-Katy Parry(lol....)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Message To The World-Story of The Year
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Dance Dance-Fall Out Boy
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Never Take A Friendship Personal-Anberlin
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Dammit-Blink 182
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Someday The Fire-Funeral For A Friend
HOW WILL YOU DIE?
The Fight-Avenged Sevenfold
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
His Girl Friday-The Academy Is...(lol)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
One For The Road-Funeral For A Friend
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Stacy's Mum-Fountains Of Wayne(WTH)
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Pens And Needles-Hawthrone Heights
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
My Heroine-Silverstein
WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS, WHAT WOULD YOU SAY?
Red Lights Indicates Doors are Secure-Arctic Monkeys
WHAT WOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
Get Busy Living Or Get Busy Dying (Do Your Part To Save The Scene And Stop Going To Shows)-Fall Out Boy
Monday, February 16, 2009
So i spent valentines day this year with my 422'07 friends Sameer Zi Yang Desmond Zhi Hao and Ronney... we went to play pool again... just like last year.... haha and as always, it was super super impromtu... i miss going out with them. its just not the same going out with the friends i do now... this is more havoc and funny i guess cause of the nonsense we do and say... so this being valentines day, we were badgering each other about scandals and why we werent out with a girl instead... hahaha... morning go out with girl at night go out with guys... hahah funny sia... had $3.80 nasi lamak with Desmond, and Zhi Hao had 13.50 jap rice... sorry (Zhi Hao you can scold for blogging this later)...Haha i like this term Sameer came up with... We are all SIA.... Single, Interested, Available.... it was fun to be out with the guys again... we only get to do this what once in a few months??? but i am glad we all still keep in contact.
Oh playing this angel mortal game this week and last week... one of my mortals dont want to reply me so heck care him.... the other one got reply last week but this week never yet hahah... but she has really nice handwriting... doubt she will read my blog anytime soon... hahaha
sian its been a long time since i blogged a proper post about whats happening in my life i guess its surprisingly fun to do this... hahah i think i might do this more often....
we were taking about the power of blogs in todays GP lecture... but i doubt my blog is actually read by anyone... hardly la... i think all give up on waiting for me to blog something out...
ah well till next time then... meanwhile a song would be nice...
Hold one tight
Wrap your arms around me till your knuckles are burning white
All your tears
Couldn't match the bitter taste of all these wasted years
And all you take, take
Everything that wasn't even yours
Wait, wait
You don't got a hold of me anymore
In a clear view there's a silhouette
And i watch you and i can't forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah, i figured it out now breaking's what the heart is for
When i see you in a silhouette
And you hold close do you feel regret?
Keeping me down when i hit that floor
And i figures it out girl breaking's what your heart is for
For so long, i had to bite my tongue
But what's the point if the feeling's gone?
I turn my head, learned i only see some memory
But all i see is red
Don't, don't
Say it didn't happen that way
I won't, won't
Believe another word that you say
In a clear view there's a silhouette
And i watch you and i can't forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah, i figured it out now breaking's what the heart is for
When i see you in a silhouette
And you hold close do you feel regret?
Keeping me down when i hit that floor
And i figures it out girl breaking's what your heart is for
Yeah, breaking's what your heart is for
Yeah, breaking's what your heart is for
And not a soul sleeps, another heart skips a beat
In every note that your wrote
And i hope that you choke one the lines
You're wasting my time, another heart beats tonight
In a clear view there's a silhouette
And i watch you and i can't forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah, i figured it out now breaking's what the heart is for
When i see you in a silhouette
And you hold close do you feel regret?
Keeping me down when i hit that floor
And i figures it out girl breaking's what your heart is for
Yeah, breaking's what your heart is for
Yeah, breaking's what your heart is for
Yeah, breaking's what your heart is for
Yeah, breaking's what your heart is
Breakin' - The All American Rejects
When The World Comes Down
Sunday, February 15, 2009
We've all been lost for most of this timeeverywhere we turn more hatred surrounds us....
Following the wrong steps
being lead by pride...
Lost-Avenged Sevenfold
Orientation 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
OK so once again i have been asked to update my blog...and i am not going to state any names this time...
hahah anyway just had orientation for the JC1's haha i took the class 0911 quite cool their class got 21 girls pro right... haha its a fun class very different from taking a class with more guys in it... somehow its refreshing to take a class of girls haha.... dont comment on my preference... i like the girl class more xP
anyway they were quite hyper i suppose most anyway some still quite quiet dont know why also leh maybe its me... maybe i talk too much i think i do... lol...
hahaha the dancing was cool first time i can teach people to dance sia haha if not normally is people must teach me one... haha oh and i can dance the girl part too hahah i am not gay ok.............
the games were fun... at least they didnt just stone one corner do nothing they were enthu and played haha so fun.... makes an ogl feel good you know to see your og have fun...
sentosa was fun too... dont know why the og suddenly ask me why i so sad... i got sad meh.... never what....
ALEX ALL THE WAY.... haha
the alex ogl are nice and fun... haha after disco night still can go eat DOU HUA (thanks sandy for telling me how to spell this)... hahaha so late then go home.... disco night was fun
i cant break dance hahaha so i wonder why i tried .... so embarrassing... infront of so many girl some more.... blame myself for falling and trying to make it look intentional....
haha ah well it was all fun while it lasted all the games dancing cheering till my voice now very sexy....
haha i am going to miss this
hahaha i hope 0911 doesnt forget who i am or what diana jessica and renjie are.....
you (girls) must wave to me k... dont forget hor....
hahaha so this posts ends here i suppose will try to update more frequently....
oh shit sia
i do my bit for the school then cant finish homework then tio warning letter how nice....... i want to curse but got girls read so i wont.....
bye bye